for the first time

Last night for the first time i'm cryng cos something could'nt ever happen to me.

I'm so jelousy for reason  I can't explain .do you think, it's normal??????

and for the first time , I can't handle my hearth

Just lost my self and I can't pretend that I'm ok

for the first time I feel so mad that I couldn't explain

for the first time, this feeling could burn my self

for the first time I felt lose from my self

and what I get , it's nothing

just lose......